in a few hours time im heading to china for a short holidays. and i have a few more hours to finish my 3000 words report, one presentation. this is really the very last project before i really graduated. this is crazily insane.
everything just happened just so fast which i have no idea what i am doing. i have been crying very often since the last two weeks. i am so scared of what im going through, knowing next year i would already be 20. i feel so fucked up with my life that i have not been enjoying as much as i could, be crazy as i could. it's a very strange feeling to be just graduated, to be moving out of my comfort zone, to be independent, to be a level smarter, to be isolated with what i would wish i could be. woow, giving up has come to my mind very often these few days, i am not sure how long my bad luck will follow me and if this will cause me to get into accident, causing me to collasp, causing me to death. it's already two weeks. i hope i see a better "thing" eventually.
a few hours ago was my last day of exhibtion, =(
seeing friends leaving, seeing myself leaving, receiving best wishes from friends and etc just make me really emotional and upset. i felt so emotional. my goodness. and last of all, i see things that i didn't expect to see. two of them today. =/
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